Realisations.. things that strike you suddenly, not the kind that Buddha had sitting under the Bodhi tree for years.
Realisations ....
That I am slowly becoming a "grown-up", whether I like it or not...
That most of my BSc batchmates are married and have had babies!
That as a kid I thought at 25, people are mature, responsible adults; and now that I am that venerable age, I don't feel anywhere close to it!
That perhaps all the 'adults' whom I was pissed at as a kid, were also individuals with similar confusions like mine, and I was wrong in being judgmental.
That it's been 3 years since I left IIT - it doesn't feel that way, and yet at the same time, it feels like it was in another universe!
That in spite of all the promises made, I am slowly drifting apart from the best friends I made while at IIT - and it is, but, inevitable.
That I had left IIT saying I would work on protein folding, and, though my lab is a protein folding lab, I am probably the only one there who doesn't do any biophysics!
That it's been 2 whole years into my PhD and I haven't done much about it.
That I started writing the blog under an assumed name since I wanted it to be a place where in I could pour out all feelings, and give the link only to people whom I would be comfortable sharing these thoughts with. But, with the blog gaining publicity, I think twice before typing a post. Maybe I need another personal blog...
Realisations ....
That I am slowly becoming a "grown-up", whether I like it or not...
That most of my BSc batchmates are married and have had babies!
That as a kid I thought at 25, people are mature, responsible adults; and now that I am that venerable age, I don't feel anywhere close to it!
That perhaps all the 'adults' whom I was pissed at as a kid, were also individuals with similar confusions like mine, and I was wrong in being judgmental.
That it's been 3 years since I left IIT - it doesn't feel that way, and yet at the same time, it feels like it was in another universe!
That in spite of all the promises made, I am slowly drifting apart from the best friends I made while at IIT - and it is, but, inevitable.
That I had left IIT saying I would work on protein folding, and, though my lab is a protein folding lab, I am probably the only one there who doesn't do any biophysics!
That it's been 2 whole years into my PhD and I haven't done much about it.
That I started writing the blog under an assumed name since I wanted it to be a place where in I could pour out all feelings, and give the link only to people whom I would be comfortable sharing these thoughts with. But, with the blog gaining publicity, I think twice before typing a post. Maybe I need another personal blog...
3 comments:
That, unlike old times, you've not been blogging as often as you would like to?
@ John
Ah, well, that as well :) No net in hostels , so, lot of posts get composed and decomposed within my head, without making it to the blog!! :)
"get composed and decomposed" - nice phrase... :P
And reading your realisations, I have come to realise that I should have realised many of them myself, but I still haven't. :P
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